Be strong, girl!
Made it through today without breaking down. Not obviously, at least.
I alternated between anger, sadness, resignation and hope. I'm a little bit angry at myself, though I don't see how I could possibly have done anything differently, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't angry at Lionel too. I know his reasons and I do agree this is the best thing for us now, but I'm still angry. Sigh. I need to forgive.
And if I don't do it soon I'll be seriously sick - my body's reacting quite badly to the stress. My stomach hurt the whole day, my throat is killing me, I keep sniffing, my vision's blurry, I get dizzy. I suppose I should be glad I have tons of work to keep me occupied. Although when the work involves taking over from my two ex-colleagues who both left last Thursday (leaving me alone in Biology and English), the lonely feeling doesn't exactly disappear.
My colleague remarked that I ought to change my desktop picture (it's one of Lionel and I hugging amid the wintry-looking backdrop of Canada) and take away the photos on my desk. I said, yeah, I know, I will soon... it makes me so sad, looking at how happy we were.
But somehow, I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
Maybe tomorrow. Maybe.
Anyway, beach photos from Sentosa! I guess we pulled it off all right. We played monkey in the water, frisbee, charades, just hung out. Ben brought his son Nat. Ahhhhhh Nat is so so cute. Don't you just want to cuddle him? Haha. Little kids always make me feel tender inside.Can't wait to have my own. I'm still hoping ;)
I had so much fun, can't wait for our next outing. Looks like everyone had a good time at the beach too. Hopefully we'll be going night cycling real soon! Planning something for after our diving trip - yup, I'll be diving with Mel, Karen, Boon Hwee and her friend Dave, and Greg next weekend. Yay!
I love the people at MCIS. So glad to see that so many turned up. It's great when your colleagues become more than just colleagues. So my Friday (despite the disastrous start to the day) was pretty good. How did YOU spend Good Friday?
Our very own Mark-orat and his harem under the coconut tree
Playing footsie in the water. Karen didn't want to get wet!
Charades - girls vs guys. Pretty much a face-off between Mel and Islani!
With Ben's little son Nat. He's sooooooo adorable!
Break-time! Nick doesn't look too happy
Trying out some yoga poses. Water babies!
This one was taken by Boon Hwee. I really like it ;) It captures how I feel about the beach, or rather, how the beach makes me feel. Delicate.
I alternated between anger, sadness, resignation and hope. I'm a little bit angry at myself, though I don't see how I could possibly have done anything differently, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't angry at Lionel too. I know his reasons and I do agree this is the best thing for us now, but I'm still angry. Sigh. I need to forgive.
And if I don't do it soon I'll be seriously sick - my body's reacting quite badly to the stress. My stomach hurt the whole day, my throat is killing me, I keep sniffing, my vision's blurry, I get dizzy. I suppose I should be glad I have tons of work to keep me occupied. Although when the work involves taking over from my two ex-colleagues who both left last Thursday (leaving me alone in Biology and English), the lonely feeling doesn't exactly disappear.
My colleague remarked that I ought to change my desktop picture (it's one of Lionel and I hugging amid the wintry-looking backdrop of Canada) and take away the photos on my desk. I said, yeah, I know, I will soon... it makes me so sad, looking at how happy we were.
But somehow, I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
Maybe tomorrow. Maybe.
Anyway, beach photos from Sentosa! I guess we pulled it off all right. We played monkey in the water, frisbee, charades, just hung out. Ben brought his son Nat. Ahhhhhh Nat is so so cute. Don't you just want to cuddle him? Haha. Little kids always make me feel tender inside.Can't wait to have my own. I'm still hoping ;)
I had so much fun, can't wait for our next outing. Looks like everyone had a good time at the beach too. Hopefully we'll be going night cycling real soon! Planning something for after our diving trip - yup, I'll be diving with Mel, Karen, Boon Hwee and her friend Dave, and Greg next weekend. Yay!
I love the people at MCIS. So glad to see that so many turned up. It's great when your colleagues become more than just colleagues. So my Friday (despite the disastrous start to the day) was pretty good. How did YOU spend Good Friday?
Our very own Mark-orat and his harem under the coconut tree
Playing footsie in the water. Karen didn't want to get wet!
Charades - girls vs guys. Pretty much a face-off between Mel and Islani!
With Ben's little son Nat. He's sooooooo adorable!
Break-time! Nick doesn't look too happy
Trying out some yoga poses. Water babies!
This one was taken by Boon Hwee. I really like it ;) It captures how I feel about the beach, or rather, how the beach makes me feel. Delicate.
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