Starting over
Okay, let's start again. I'm calmer now.
Just had a looooooooooooong catch-up session with Peiyu, my 'mummy' from ACJC. Was so good to see her again. The last time we saw each other was almost exactly a year ago, at her graduation. How time flies! But with good girlfriends, time is never an issue. We had a great time sharing and praying together. Glad for Christian girlfriends like her. This is the time I need them most.
'Mummy' is one girl who knows where she's going. Her walk with God is something I aspire to. When I meet people like her, for one brief moment I catch a shimmering glimpse of how wonderful it is to walk in the light. I know I'm still struggling, but I really want to get there some day.
I told her how hard it was for me - life's like a fine balancing act where you have to be so careful not to fall. She reminded me that it's not about not falling, it's about how well you fall. So true! Everyone falls sometime, after all. You just have to pick yourself up and get back on the wire. One foot at a time, that's all. At the bottom there's always a safety net - Someone will catch me when I fall. Not if, when. I know I will fall. Not that that's an excuse. Knowing you will fail at times shouldn't stop you from trying not to.
I guess the break-up isn't just a wake-up call to Lionel, it's one for me as well. I have to stop focusing on Lionel, or any other guy, for that matter, and focus on God. Like Yu says, seek the Giver, not the gift. The gift will come later... but how can you receive it if you do not first know the Giver?
So yeah, let's start again. No more hysterics - I'll try, at least. Grieving period's over - though there might be a new one eventually, but I won't think about that now. I've just picked up Every Woman's Battle again, which was a birthday gift from Sam last year. This time, I'm really going to try to live by it. I don't think it'll be easy at all - I foresee lots of changes that I'm probably going to try to fight at first - but then, no one ever said it would be. Ah well. I guess it's time.
In the spirit of 'let's start again', here's the personality analysis - the Johari window - once more. I wonder if I've changed since the previous one. Do me a favour, people, and check it out when you have a minute. How do you see me? I'd love to know. If you don't see yourself as others see you, you won't ever know who you really are. So, tell me more about myself ;)
Just had a looooooooooooong catch-up session with Peiyu, my 'mummy' from ACJC. Was so good to see her again. The last time we saw each other was almost exactly a year ago, at her graduation. How time flies! But with good girlfriends, time is never an issue. We had a great time sharing and praying together. Glad for Christian girlfriends like her. This is the time I need them most.
'Mummy' is one girl who knows where she's going. Her walk with God is something I aspire to. When I meet people like her, for one brief moment I catch a shimmering glimpse of how wonderful it is to walk in the light. I know I'm still struggling, but I really want to get there some day.
I told her how hard it was for me - life's like a fine balancing act where you have to be so careful not to fall. She reminded me that it's not about not falling, it's about how well you fall. So true! Everyone falls sometime, after all. You just have to pick yourself up and get back on the wire. One foot at a time, that's all. At the bottom there's always a safety net - Someone will catch me when I fall. Not if, when. I know I will fall. Not that that's an excuse. Knowing you will fail at times shouldn't stop you from trying not to.
I guess the break-up isn't just a wake-up call to Lionel, it's one for me as well. I have to stop focusing on Lionel, or any other guy, for that matter, and focus on God. Like Yu says, seek the Giver, not the gift. The gift will come later... but how can you receive it if you do not first know the Giver?
So yeah, let's start again. No more hysterics - I'll try, at least. Grieving period's over - though there might be a new one eventually, but I won't think about that now. I've just picked up Every Woman's Battle again, which was a birthday gift from Sam last year. This time, I'm really going to try to live by it. I don't think it'll be easy at all - I foresee lots of changes that I'm probably going to try to fight at first - but then, no one ever said it would be. Ah well. I guess it's time.
In the spirit of 'let's start again', here's the personality analysis - the Johari window - once more. I wonder if I've changed since the previous one. Do me a favour, people, and check it out when you have a minute. How do you see me? I'd love to know. If you don't see yourself as others see you, you won't ever know who you really are. So, tell me more about myself ;)
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