Catch me if I fall

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

24 random thoughts

1. I'm hungry.
2. I'm so not sleepy.
3. My bedroom needs cleaning.
4. I really like Coldplay.
5. Bullie is the cutest dog in the world!
6. Wentworth Miller (Prison Break) is gorgeous.
7. Grey's Anatomy rock-saurs!
8. I need to write songs.
9. I want to go diving soon.
10. I love my legs.
11. Should I cut my hair?
12. I wanna dance.
13. I love the smell of sweat.
14. Associations are hard to change.
15. I desperately need to buy new shoes.
16. I have to sit down and properly sort out my finances.
17. There is something seriously wrong with this computer. Hope it survives this post at least. Maybe it's just me. My work com does absurd things too.
18. I need to buy bikinis.
19. Why are guys such jerks?
20. Scratch that. Why am I so stupid?
21. *Sigh* Scratch that. You live and learn.
22. I have great friends!
23. I'm thankful for a lot of things.
24. I'm looking forward to Saturday.

Oh well. Listening to All-American Rejects' My Paper Heart. Feels pretty appropriate.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall down your face
The taste is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is easiest when I am around you

So bottle up old love
And throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
Now a year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer

Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights, my bedside is cold
For I am gone, and spring blossoms you to me


Went down to ECP for a really short run after work today. Planned to do a longer one but I was more tired than I thought, and I got there pretty late anyway. Still, at least I'm upping the mileage. I've run more this week already than I usually do in a whole week. Yay me! Next run's on Thursday, and another one this weekend - I'll try a longer route if there's time. Everything seems to be happening on Saturday though, and I think I'll be tired out by Sunday, so I guess we'll see.

Had a nice long chat with Greg over dinner. It's good to talk and put things in perspective. Seeing him reminds me of how much we've been through together. I'm glad we went through what we did though. Like Rey says, everything that you go through in life just makes you who you are in the end. And life's a journey, and all journeys have their wrong turns and detours. Sometimes the 'wrong turns' turn out to be not so wrong after all. Sliding doors, eh? You never know what might have been.

Anyway, like I said in random thought 23, I'm thankful for a lot of things. I was pretty down Sunday night and yesterday, but in the end positivity always wins. B+ right? It's in my blood, like it always has been ;) Maybe like Rey says, I am more mature. It can't be that it doesn't matter to me anymore, because it surely means much more at this point in time than ever before. Or maybe I've found that inner peace, or I'm reaching it, finally. Let's hope so.

Yeah, no point worrying or second-guessing myself. In the end, God's in control. For once that doesn't seem so scary. Weird, huh. Besides, I think I'm really blessed in all other aspects of my life. Nick said, always thank God first. That's good advice. So I'm taking it.

1. Finances - I'm thankful for my bonus. Unexpected but so very welcome! AND I was pleasantly surprised to see two of my investments return nice dividends recently. And here I was worrying about my horrible expenditure this month. Perfect timing! Just enough to cover everything and have a bit left over. God truly does provide.
2. Family - Thank God my family are all safe and in good health. My dad just celebrated his 54th birthday. Long life, Dad! And a happy one too. He and Mom are such a cute couple. After dropping Mom off at the market today, he said to Lis and I as he watched her cross the road, "I love her." I wanna be like them someday.
Russ is studying hard for his 'A' Levels. Glad he's taking his exams seriously now! When he gets down to it, he really doesn't mess about.
Lis seems all right at work these days. Praying for her to get the uni of her choice. At least she's got a plan.
3. Friends - I'm thankful for people like Nick and Greg and Rey and the girls, who constantly remind me that I'm not alone and that there are many who care deeply for me. They're always there for me when I'm down. Can't treasure these people enough.
4. Work - It's busy busy busy, but it looks like I'll be getting my transplant soon. Fingers crossed! Word is that I'll be under someone I've worked with before, and I know she's a great boss. Not that my present boss isn't good, in fact I think I'm really lucky to be under her and that I get along pretty well with her. Looking good so far. Projects are wrapping up, new ones starting. Exciting stuff!

There's lots more to be thankful for. I should count my blessings more often. In the end, I'm still thankful for all the experiences I've had. Good or bad. Oh well. God's hands.

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