You're most vulnerable when you're happy

I think my life just got turned upside down. I'm felt so much so strongly all at once that I'm just numb now. I'm not sure how to react anymore - my initial impulses were not nice ones, and although they've more or less passed, I still get the occasional urge to do something wildly stupid, just because. A few years ago I wouldn't even have thought about it long enough to figure out it was stupid. Thank God I'm not at that phase of my life anymore. There are better ways to move on. But still.

I'm just feeling... really drained right now. Like someone just let all the substance out of my body and I'm just an empty shell. Fragile... ready to shatter. Or maybe I already have, I don't know. I'm barely holding it together, torn between hope and resignation. I never thought I'd say this, but maybe it's time to give up.

*sigh*

I think I'll go to Boston.