I need you to save me from myself

More ups and downs this last weekend. We've been through a lot. Ohhhh intensity. Sometimes I wonder if it's a good thing.

Saturday:
AM - Walking around Singapore raising money for charity, and having a really good time with Lionel at the same time. Then breakfast at Raffles City and shopping for presents.
PM - Shopping for groceries to make lunch. I love how we work so well together - I feel like we're a married couple, it just felt so... normal and low-key. Like we do this every day. And arguing over who gets to pay for everything. I just love that about us ;) Haha... we're so weird.
Picked up a bag of fish on the way back to Lionel's. Num-nums for the snakehead. Got back and cooked lunch. Well... I made the vegetable and fruit salads anyway, Lionel did the actual cooking. I do love a guy who can cook, it's so incredibly... sexy. Wow. And the meal was just delicious. Thank you, dear. I know you'll be cooking for me a lot more in future ;) Lunch was fun, talking about how we cook differently. Haha. Ahhhh... you just keep surprising me, you know? I can't believe how amazing you are sometimes. Is there anything you CAN'T do?
After lunch, a quick shower and then off to Rachel's piano recital. Well done Rachel! No mistakes at all, and you made it look so easy. Musical talent runs in your family. Hope someday it'll run in mine =P I'm glad you like the piggy. It's so squeezable. *Hugs*
EVENING - Off to Stella's 21st. First, a swim (okay, walk) around the pool. We're such water-babies wheeeee! Hey babe, you know I love the feeling of weightlessness you give me... like I'm floating in air. I feel so free, but at the same time it's such a comforting, protected sensation. I suppose babies in the womb feel that way. Speaking of babies... Sam's little son Soon Joo (did I spell it right?) is so so cute. I love his baby scent... and his skin!!!! My goodness. I'll post pictures when I get them so you can see how adorable he is. Oh, babies! Can't wait.

[Edit: Pictures!!!!!! I think you're better with kids than I am, babe ;) ]

A wonderful day, though it ended so soberly. Intensity intensity intensity.

Sunday:
AM - Errr woke up, fell asleep again. Woke up, realised was really late, frantically called a cab, off to Marina Square to meet Far and Min.
PM - Got there just before Lionel, met the girls and bought Saf's present part I, met Lionel, went to Burger King to finish up Saf's birthday card. Aiyar Farah, it looks okay what!!!!! Silly girl. Oh and Min's got a secret... haha. Next outing yah...
Went to Lerk Thai, met Isma, Sakina, and da birthday girl. Happie birthday Safiyya!!!!!!!!! And a great year ahead ;) Dessert at Swensen's (mmmmmmmm) and some photo-taking, and we presented Saf with her handbag. Part II will arrive in the mail soon... hahahahaha. Hope you enjoy both your pressies, girl!
After lunch, went shopping, bought stuff for the launch, went down for evening service with Lionel. Deep thoughts all the way home. Dinner at Lionel's, saw his bro off to camp, deep thoughts all the way home. I'm glad we talked though, some things just needed to be resolved. Now to put our plan into action! It's scary but exciting... *sigh* I'm still a little worried, but I guess I'll live. You already know how I feel. You don't need to make any promises, it's out of our control anyway. As it always has been. Again. Ah well, almost back to Square One. Almost.

Intensity... intensity.

So this is love.

I'm in love, and life has never been better.

It's pretty crazy when I actually stop to think about it - and I don't usually, 'cos what's the point? - I mean, everything's just happened so fast. It's been INTENSE. Looks like it's gonna be that way, all the way through.

We've gone from being 'just friends' to soulmates and 'love-of-my-life' in the space of about two months. We're talking about trips to Canada, borrowing cousins' kids, engagement. We've planned the bathroom and library in our future house (our house is gonna be awesome!), picked baby names and decided that our sons will be ACS(I) boys. Whoooooo! And we wanted to take it slow =P

Funny thing is, although this is probably the most intense relationship I've ever had (and trust me, that's saying something), it's never felt so right. I think my parents see it too. I'm glad they like you, babe. That's a very positive sign! ;) I think the fact that you're an officer and a gentleman helps tremendously... like I keep telling you, you're everything I ever wanted in a guy, you're just perfect for me. So don't ever ask again if you deserve me - I'm not a reward, babe, I'm just meant for you. 23 years of waiting finally paying off =P

Yeah, you are worth the wait. I have to keep reminding myself though, 'cos even two months seems like such a long time. But hey, I know it won't be long before I can officially call you mine ;)

Walking home last night, the bullfrogs were croaking all around the track. People were strolling, jogging, cycling by, silent and ghost-like. And I, I was in a world all my own - thinking of you, like I always do these days. Just remembering that look on your face when you sang to me in my room... yeah, I could tell how emotional you were. And how you look when you pick me up just like a little child, and swing me around. You looking up at me, and I see myself reflected in your eyes. I put my arms around you and watch your smile light up your face. You were giggling on Sunday night! We were both so high. And how peaceful you look when you fall asleep with me caressing you. I love watching you sleep. Oh babe... I love you. And as you said, what more is there to say?

I'm looking forward to October ;)

He's my brother

I'm so proud of my bro. Wheeeeee! ;)

See see!

For the first time

Fishing at Lower Seletar Reservoir on Saturday - the fish were biting this time. No more crabs for us, whoo!!!!! Check out my first fish - I caught this baby all by myself! (Okay, so I had to learn to cast first... but I reeled it in myself!!!!) A little peacock bass. Ain't he a beauty? =P Score: Mel - 1, Lionel - 3 or 4. Random people gave us more.

It's amazing how friendly people are when you're holding a fish/fishing rod. They'll want to know what you've caught, how many you've caught, how long you've been fishing... and little kids are just fascinated by the fish. (Oh yeah, I love the kids, they're so cute! Especially when they're staring at the fish, they get so big-eyed... the kids, I mean, although I suppose the fish are quite stressed-out too.)















We ended up with about 8 peacock basses of various sizes. Not all made it back alive though. Those three up there are some of the ones that got away. Well actually, they just died before we could get them home. Sad, the last two were quite big. In fact, only one (the biggest!) eventually made it into Lionel's fish tank. The rest died at the reservoir or en route to the tank, were given away or used as bait. Oh well. Anyway, I think the sole survivor has a decent shot, now that he's stopped his underwater hyperventilating. He's currently figuring out glass.




















And of course, a photo before we left the reservoir... I think I'm glowing. It might be the sun. My colleagues say I'm in love. Well, they could be right *shrug* whatever it is, I'm radiant! (Okay, that was a pun, I'm not being vain. Haha.)

Yeah, you make me glow, babe. That must be why random people keep complimenting me these days =P

Oh yeah and not forgetting our first... *sigh*. Oh baby, you're incredible, you know that? You just make me feel so special. Yeah it's been a day of firsts. Wow. ;)

At the beginning with you

Delicate... it's the way you make me feel.









There's so much I want to say, but I don't know where to begin. And after all, where did it really begin? Two weeks ago on our first date (can't believe it's only been two weeks when it feels like we've been together forever!) or seven weeks ago when you came home? Or three years ago when we first met at Ubin?

Life is so full of quirks.

A chance encounter... mutual friends... Goo Goo Dolls... my 21st birthday... Rovers camp... all the little things and memories tying us together. Who would have guessed that after so long we'd end up being something more than just friends?

And how could I ever know how much I'd come to mean to you - and you to me - well, maybe if I'd known then just how I had impacted your life. You brought so much into my life, right from the beginning. I want to thank you for that. Even when you never knew.

I've been trying to tell you everything I feel. Still, I've never even come close to saying half of all that's in my heart. But that's ok. Sometimes, it's more than just words. I'll let the pictures do the talking ;)

Love you, baby.