Blurblocky me

Oh my.

People DO comment on my blog. Greg was complaining that I never approved his comments but, you see, I never knew he'd commented in the first place. I just clicked on 'moderate comments' and wahla! There were all the comments I never knew existed. And here I was thinking no one reads my blog anymore.

Sigh.

Blur lil' me. I'm sad now *cries*

Oh yeah thanks to everyone who tried to post comments... good to know I'm still loved and thought of.

Back to the beginning

I'm waiting... wanting... wishing.

Waiting for something to happen. Wanting it to begin, wishing it were over.

I'm learning patience. Still, and always. *Sigh*

It's good to have friends to talk to. Right now, I'm discovering more people care for me than I thought, and more deeply than I knew.

I'm thankful.

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

So I finally sang you your song last night. Well, 2 of them. That makes a grand total of... what, 5, I think? My lucky number. Anyway, I hope you liked it.

Lyrics! In case you didn't catch them the first time around. (Oh geez, that sounds so familiar... *goosebumps*)

Meant To Me

I woke up thinking all your pictures were gone
You came and took them 'cos you had to move on
You left me behind oh you left with a smile
You blew me a kiss you always exit in style

The last time we kissed you cried over me
You never believed that we weren't meant to be
Now all that I've got is a dark empty space
The last of your touch and the scent of your face

You left me a note saying thank you baby
For all of the things that you showed to me yeah
There's so much ahead so please go wisely
Take it or leave it any way you make it
Just don't forget what you meant to me

I cut myself loose oh I'm learning to choose
I'm running from sin and I'm done with abuse
I'm going too fast yeah I'm going too slow
I'm making mistakes that I already know

You left me a note saying thank you baby
For all of the times that you stood by me yeah
You're everything girl oh you drive me crazy
Take it don't lose it find a way to break it
Just don't forget what you meant to be

Someday when it's over
One day when we're getting old
Someday we'll just sit around
Share the things we never told
See just how our life unfolds
Wonder what tomorrow holds

You left me a note saying thank you baby
For all of the things that you tried to be yeah
I'll still be around oh i love you baby
Take it don't fake it we'll find a way to make it
And don't forget what you meant to me

Anything but ordinary

The Fighters

Do you remember what you said to me
Just last December how we could be free
Should we surrender we would always be
Oh friends forever
And everytime my mind was filled with doubt
You would be there and we would work it out
Each time we left was just a roundabout
Oh way to say we'd never
Oh well we said we'd never

And you were right we put up quite a fight
And every trial just made us hold on tight
Oh were we wrong to keep this up so long
We were so strong
Oh baby, baby, maybe
It just wasn't us
It just wasn't us

Oh years from now when all is said and done
Would you still think that I'm the only one
Oh was it good oh did we have our fun
Oh we were good together
Yeah we were good together

And you were right we put up quite a fight
We wouldn't break, we couldn't if we tried
No we weren't wrong to keep this up so long
We were so strong
Oh baby, baby, maybe
It just wasn't us
It just wasn't us

We would work it out we would work it out
We could work it out we could work it out
We would work it out we would work it out
We could work it out, baby


So this is how it ends. With a song, written in half an hour while cruising at East Coast waiting for you to show up, so we could say goodbye. Except we didn't... we can't. We never could, could we? We're just too good together.

I'm just glad you're still here babe. I love you, think I always will.

Anyway, here's the other song. I think it's probably my favourite of all I've ever written, and I actually like the tunes of both these songs (and shockingly, you didn't object to them either) so whee!


The Ordinary Anthem

Here's looking at you looking at me looking at everybody
Wondering if our lives are gonna change
Cheers, look at us now, wondering how we could be everybody
Ordinary never seemed so strange

'Cos we were meant for something more than this
The world would die just for one kiss
Oh we could never be
Ordinary
You or me

I'm looking for you looking for me looking to be somebody
Trying for the man you'll be someday
Don't fade into life, hunger and strife
Fading into nobody
Lost in time with nothing more to say

'Cos you were meant for something more than this
And I would die just for one kiss
Oh we could never be
Ordinary
You or me
Can't you see
That we will not be free
'Cos we will always be
You and me




Finally got that photo from the night of The Cuban Brothers!!!!! There we are, big eyes, pouty lips and all. Aren't we pretty? =P Kudos to Greg for stealing the pic...

Well I guess there's nothing more to say. Thanks for everything... sigh. No regrets, babe.

Almost falling... afraid to let go

Get ready for some big changes...

To everyone who knows what's going on, thanks for the support through everything, and sorry if we've let you down. Thanks for the prayers, the hugs, the listening ears, the words of advice.
I love you guys.

It's not quite over yet... never went down without a fight.

Semi-naked dancing Cuban men

"Come, let me touch you in an incorrect way... You know you want to."

So said Miguel, head honcho of the wonderfully nasty (I mean that in the best possible sense of the word) Cuban Brothers, live at Zouk at last night's by-invite only Heineken Green Room party. Oh yeah, baby... We want to.

These guys are freakin' AWESOME. I pity the rest of the world who never caught them in action. I really wish our friends were there to share the pure energy and lurve all around, 'cos the Cuban Brothers are untouchable - the moves, the grooves, the porno references. Especially the porno references. Constantly clutching his c**k and thrusting his hips throughout the way-too-short hour-plus show, Miguel was unabashedly, ridiculously horny. Ripping off his pants ("I'm going to take my pants off tonight, I might as well do it now.") to reveal leopard print skin-tight briefs? No problem. Using his 'nephew' Archerio's buttcheeks as drums? Sure thing, bro. Riding Archie around the stage and inviting the girls to touch Archie's ass? Yippee!!!!

Suffice it to say, I had the time of my life.

Edit: I started this post last Fri night. Don't really feel like continuing the story, although I will post pictures as soon as I get them. Greg took some shots on his phone's camera - Miguel doing his thing onstage! The Brothers doing the slow running man! Kengo-san in colourful striped briefs! The Heineken girls came round and took a polaroid of us (now I have three!) and some photographer asked to take our photo. Greg had his glasses off and I had new hair! So yeah I guess we were hot that night ;)

The incredible music helped of course. I just love dancing, can't ever get enough of it. And it's really great when everyone's screaming and cheering and dancing and laughing and having such a good time. It's a cool way to work out, I could do it for hours and feel energised at the end of it. All night long... which is the song the Brothers ended the show with. Very apt. So fun!!!! Although you do go slightly deaf afterwards... Ah well, I have my ear-wax to protect me.

Went to Zouk again on Sat night. Kind of a last-minute thing, I wasn't so hyped for it, and it ended up being pretty bizarre. Let's just say one member of our party got thrown out for being very naughty and I gotta say, very very dumb. Youth!... Actually, I kinda miss it. You do so many stupid things when you're young, but you have so much more fun too. Maybe because you don't think about the things you ought to be thinking about, until it's too late.

I guess I've pretty much reached that place now. i've begun to re-evaluate my whole life, not least my relationships. And as much as I'd like to stay active and err cool till I'm 90, I prob won't be like the 45-year-old auntie at every Zoukout who wears a bikini and sarong and keeps on dancing, even to bands. I'm discovering and reluctantly admitting that I do have limits. Party time will be over one day, and... What's that line from that Switchfoot song? 'Hello, good morning, how you been? Yesterday left, my head kicked in' Yes, I'm learning to breathe... and finding that only One can break my fall.

I missed church yesterday, but I got this off Sam's blog... Pastor Barnabas said this yesterday:
Sometimes God makes us wait so that we learn to be utterly dependent and desperate for Him.
And at Saturday's Young Adults' Fellowship meeting with Lionel, the Reverend gave a message on believing that God is in control of our lives and destinies, and I guess I needed a reminder 'cos I've been trying so hard to make things in my life work out without really trusting God that they will.

Well now I do have to believe, I have to trust. I almost feel stupid, because I've known this all along, and I never meant to hurt anyone but myself. I never cared too much about hurting myself because after all it's my life, isn't it? As long as I can keep safe the ones I love, I don't mind suffering. But I guess when you play with fire, sometimes the fire gets out of your control and you end up with a lot more than burnt fingers and singed eyebrows.

Ah well.

Current mood: Pensive... melancholic... moody.

Edit: Photos!!!!!

The Brothers doing their funky dance (that's Miguel with the mike); Archie and Kengo-san showing off more snazzy moves; the Brothers flexing; Miguel wowing the crowd; Miguel wowing the crowd and having the time of his life. And check out my Heineken photos at the bottom... my hair keeps getting longer and I ain't gonna cut it anytime soon! I like the new style in the last photo, but it looks a bit 'dao'...

Bootiful day

(Note: May contain X-Men: The Last Stand spoilers. I'll try not to say too much, but I may not be able to help myself.)

I'm just sitting here grinning my head off.

Feeling very very very pleased with myself.

And happie! Yay!!!!!

Because... I watched X-Men: The Last Stand yesterday!!!!!!!!! And it wasn't as bad as the reviews made it out to be - in fact, it was pretty damn good. So I'm biased, I knew I was gonna love it anyway just 'cos Wolverine and Jean Grey were in it. Ahahaha. Jean Grey was HAWT. Ow! Mutants just don't get much hotter than her. And she was really cool to watch... I love those moments of vulnerability, her eyes are so beautiful.

Anyway, whatever anyone else says, I thought it was a good movie. Of course the style was different from the first two X-Men movies, and the 'deep-ness' was somewhat lacking. But still! I liked the explodeyness of it all. And Wolverine. Whee!!!!!!

I think I might wanna watch it again. After I watch the first two. Any takers? =P

I'm writing this as I have my lunch. Eating chestnuts out of a bag. A whole bag of chestnuts! For me! All fruits and nuts today. Mmmmmmm. I love my lunches ;) My dad's so sweet, he makes my lunch for me every day (well during the week anyway) so I don't have to skip lunch if I work through my break (happens more often than you'd think). Also saves me lots of money, gives me fruits and vegetables which I absolutely HAVE to have every day, and best of all, makes me feel so loved. *tear* I love my daddy.

Ummmmm. Chestnuts gooooooood. Haha, I'm so easy to please. Nuts make me happy. Or are chestnuts fruits? Well whatever - fruits make me happy too. Except durians and dragonfruit, and mangosteens. And bananas. Okay maybe I'm not that easy to please when it comes to fruits...

I'm a-happie!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!

I wanna go night cycling soon. One Saturday, I'm just gonna bridge the whole day and then cycle around Singapore at night and have multiple suppers. Someone take me! Er, out!